Wednesday, January 4

Seasons

We all go through different seasons in life.  2011 was a very interesting year for me.  It is set apart by it's lack of music.  I literally just sat here for 5 minutes and wracked my brain for an instance of music in the past year.  There was just the one.  I sang at my county fair.

For as long as I can remember, music has been an integral part of my life.  Music has pumped through my veins..  If I were at home, I would simply run down to the Baptist church and pluck away at the piano until whatever was out of my system.  Or I would put my headphones in and play as loud as I could on my keyboard.  Seeing as I avoid the music hall on campus, and I don't exactly have the keys to my church here, or room for my full size keyboard.. music has suffered.  Sure, I have my clarinet and guitar here, but... I'm one of those obnoxious musicians who absolutely gets lost in the music and drowns everything else out.  It's how I think clearly.  I don't think the neighbors would appreciate it.

I believe that there is a reason for everything, a time and a purpose.  This season without music has been good and bad.  I know it's something my soul is craving.
I don't think I really believe in New Year's Resolutions, but I do believe in living intentionally.  Just because the calendar marks the beginning of a new year doesn't mean that anything has changed.  So while I don't want to set goals or resolutions, I will share with you my intentions

  • I intend to get back on track with my Bible reading after a very long Christmas Break.  {I have seen the difference in myself.  I have witnessed first hand my reactions when I'm not in the Word.  Why is it always the things our parents tell us to do, that end up being what we don't want to do...and yet in the end, end up doing?}
  • I intend to play more music, and to not be afraid of it.  {Sometimes I'm afraid to play because I'm afraid I'm going to fail.  That happened more times than I can count this year.  I want to get back to the place where music is my special bond to my Father.  The place where the only thing that matters is that I'm worshiping.}

On another note, I have some really exciting news!  Long story short I heard my boss from home wanted to talk to me, so I called him.  He told me that he would be willing to bring me on to work 3 months early this year if I take online classes. (This was originally my idea, I just never heard back from him, so jumped to the conclusion that he didn't like it.)  God is so good!  So spring term I will be back in my hometown working full-time and doing school online full-time.  It will be a challenge, but I can do it.  

Some more exciting news.  I did all the math yesterday, and found out that if I take classes this summer, I can actually graduate next June!!!!!!!!! Praise the Lord.  I don't know how, but it's so exciting.  And I'm going to start crying just thinking about it.  The opportunity to go back to work early this year really confirms for me that I'm supposed to move back home after I graduate.  You see, the thing is that college was never my dream.  It was His.  And that's the beauty of it.  I'm giving it back to Him.  While I was trying to control this semi truck from back, He's been at the wheel. 

So, will you pray for me?  Will you pray that God completes this work in me that only He could have begun?  Will you pray along side me that I can decrease so that He can increase in my life?  I would greatly appreciate it. 

~Kaitlynn Marie

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