The Love of the Lord

Hello again,
So lately the Lord has really been pressing upon me His unyielding, unconditional love for me.  I admit that some days are good days and some days are not so good for me.  There are the days that I wake up ready to embrace what the Lord has for me, and there are some mornings I wake up and don't want to even get out of bed.  This is how I know I'm on the right track though:  I don't have all of the answers, I don't have the strength to do it on my own, and I still don't even know what it is I'm supposed to be doing or feeling or saying....

I've done a lot of thinking lately (oh no) and mostly it's been in a sort of circle.  I guess I'm trying to figure out how to live out my purpose in a world that is consumed with itself.  Well to begin with I'm still trying to discover my own purpose on this earth.  But it does make it infinitely more difficult with so many people walking around who don't really give a hoot. 

Anyway, back to His love.  Because that's what it all boils down to.  God's amazing love for us.  For you.  For me.  It's funny [or ironic maybe] that the name of this blog is the Greatest Commandment.  Which is a reference to Deuteronomy 6:5 [NKJV].

You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your strength. 

[The Message]:

Love God, your God, with your whole heart; love him with all that's in you, love him with all you've got!

 When I created this blog my freshman year of college, it was to glorify the Lord.  Writing at His calling.  Since then I've contemplated changing the name of this blog multiple times, but each time I don't.  There's always a nagging at the back of my mind that says, "No, keep it as it is.  For My glory, not yours, Kaitlynn."  And I can't argue with that.

Now that I've truly stepped into the Lord's love for me, this passage takes on a different meaning.  It looks different than it used to.  Before when I would read this, and when I tried to live it out, it was all me showing my human love for the Lord.  Which is great....but not enough.  I didn't absolutely believe the power that grace had, I didn't see the absolute beauty that God sees when He looks at me.  A love that's one sided isn't really love at all.  What I thought was loving God was only a pale picture of the truth, of reality.  I was looking at Him, trying to love Him through a glass door that was closed.  The door only had a handle on my side.  It was my choice to accept the love of the One who gave up His life for me.  And when I did open that door, my knight in shining armor swept me off my feet and held me close.  Close enough to feel His touch, to hear His heart beating where my head laid on His chest. 

Have you opened the door to the God of creation yet?  Have you allowed the Greatest Love Story ever told to become your love story with the One who will never leave you nor forsake you? 

And so Deuteronomy 6:5 looks different to me because I know that the Lord absolutely loves me, and so for me to love Him is completely different now.  Nothing I do or don't do can strengthen His love for me, because it is already infinite.  And so I can rest in His love, and continue to learn how to love the Lord my God with all my heart, soul, and mind.